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Before anything else. I came to NY in a bad headspace. Not just about my game, but about life in general. Mystery and Colgate, you two helped change my mindset on that. Although all of my problems aren't fixed, I have a new outlook towards them and I cannot express enough how immensely appreciative I am of that. Beyond game, though you may not know how. If you guys read this, know that you saved me.

So I would like to start with saying thank you too all the instructors and coaches that were there. I got to interact at least a little with all of you and every interaction I could draw upon to help with my game.

Over the weekend I had a lot of "a-ha!" moments. But these are the first that come to mind, in no particular order.

1) I vapor locked from AA at one point on Friday, I was literally shaking. Matador pulled me aside and helped me with this. I worry about what every guy worries about - "what if I run out of things to say" - "What will they think of me" etc. Finally Matador told me to go up to one girl and say "Hi, I'm an asshole. And I have a small penis." Strangely enough this was easier to do than trying to say anything else. And instead of just realizing it in my head (it doesn't matter what they think) my emotions and reaction to it actually changed. Thank you Matador.

2) Mystery, Matador, and Discovery's kino was amazing, and by Saturday night I was able to use it (and have been every since). From "Hi" to hugging in under a minute. Awesome realization for myself. Thanks to all of you.

3) Be passionate. TC showed this when we were writing down what we do for a living. And just listening to the way Mystery talks, he's passionate about anything he says. Someone once said "It's not what you talk about. It's how you talk about it"
As an example, I no longer say "I was in love" I say "I was in LOOOOVE". I do this with anything I talk about now and it hooks so much easier. (even talking about bugs or stars or grass ANYTHING). Thank you TC.

4) PUSH the limits. Saturday night I had a girl jump me (literally) which was amazing and the first time I've experienced that. I was so caught in enjoying it, holding her up in the air in them middle of the club (Thank you again Matador) and making out. Then I heard a whisper in my ear from Sphinx telling me to take it to the next level. I didn't make it to that next level that night, but I'm happier that I tried and will continue to. Its the only way to get better. Big thanks to Sphinx. Who also helped me control my energy level, different levels for different places

5) magic words from Colgate - "Hey before you go..." I was sounding needy when I would say "Oh, you're leaving?" and they'd walk away anyway. Those four magic words help me get just a little further each and every time.

I could keep going on and on. It was a great weekend that changed my life in more than one way, and I'm appreciative to all of you for that.